Woman reflects on heroin addiction as National Recovery Month ends

3 months 3 weeks 21 hours ago Saturday, September 30 2017 Sep 30, 2017 Saturday, September 30, 2017 3:55:00 PM CDT September 30, 2017 in News
By: Adam Duxter, KOMU 8 Reporter
loading

JEFFERSON CITY - To Heather Geick, life now stands in sharp relief to her past.

"People recognize me, but they don't recognize me," she said. "They're like, 'is that you Heather?' and I'm like 'yup.'"

Born in Jefferson City, Geick lived the first two decades of her life in what she now describes as "extreme dysfunction". As National Recovery Month comes to a close, her story can help shed light on the struggle of addiction.

Geick says she remembers first being exposed to alcohol when she was just 5.

"By the time I was 8 years old, I was seeking out pills. By the time I was 12 years old, I was drinking alcohol. By the time I was 14 years old, I had used my first intravenous drug and gotten my first DWI. By the time I was 15 years old I was selling cocaine to support my own habit. The progression happened very rapidly."

Geick said the people around her contributed to her addiction.

"Everybody that I knew and hung around with in high school used drugs and alcohol," she said. "I ended up dropping out in my junior year. I dropped out and moved out of my home and began living on my own."

From there, Geick found herself in an unhealthy relationship.

"I ended up getting pregnant when I was 19 years old, and in a treatment center when I was 24 years old."

After spending nine months in a treatment center, Geick moved to Lynn, Missouri. Despite her efforts to stay clean, she began to use again. 

"Whenever I came out of treatment, there wasn't a lot of recovery. Normally you would start going to meetings, you would work the steps, you would get a sponsor, and I didn't have any of that."

She said she wasn't evolving.

I was trying to change outward circumstances, but there was nothing going on in my inward man," she said.

Despite her best efforts to stay clean after treatment, Geick said she found herself falling back into the habits she had tried so hard to escape. 

"It started out very small. It started with marijuana, and then it progressed to drinking, and then it progressed to methamphetamine. Before I knew it, I was pregnant by another man, I was trying to make a family again, and I was spiraling downwards."

Geick said, by then, her actions were having serious consequences.

"So here now I have my oldest daughter, who has been taken out of my care, I don't have custody of her anymore. Now I have another daughter who I have absolutely no idea how to care for. I'm still using drugs and alcohol. I'm with a man who I've only known for some months. I'm trying to build a life based on no foundation. It ends up being a mess again."

Geick lost her job and had no other option but to move back to her hometown of Jefferson City. There, the pattern continued.

"I came back to Jefferson City with the same mindset and the same heartset, so I continued to live the life I had always live, which was a life of chaos and disorder, causing destruction to everyone I loved - including myself. At the end of my poor choices and substance use disorder, I ended up being an intravenous drug user. I crossed over boundaries that I said I'd never cross over."

Geick remembers a feeling of hopelessness.

"I was at the edge of the cliff. I was what people call 'the dredge of society'. Everybody looked at me like I was the black plague, including my family, because they didn't know how to help me. I was continuing in this sick chaotic behavior, and everyone that loved me, they didn't know what to do with me."

Then came the crime. Geick and her then-boyfriend were charged with two counts of armed criminal action, first degree robbery, first degree burglary and unlawful use of a weapon. 

The charges were eventually reduced to first degree burglary. Geick's then-boyfriend was sentenced to twelve years in prison, while she was sentenced to five years of probation with a ten year backup-  meaning that a violation of her probation could send her to prison.

Geick did violate and was sentenced to a 60 day "shock sentence" in the Miller county jail. It was there, she said, that something began to change in her life for the first time. 

"My cell mate was a Christian, and I thought she was the weirdest bird on the face of this earth. But I received salvation in that jail cell, and I experienced a heart change there."

Yet when Geick's 60 days were up, she found herself continuing to struggle and fall back into dependence.

"I didn't know how to live, and went back out into the same environment. I was wanting something so bad, but I didn't know how to get it. It was only a matter of time before I started using again. Yet I no longer wanted to live the way that I was living."

After another violation of probation, Geick was sentenced to three years in prison. But, instead of feeling discouraged, Geick said she felt freedom for the first time. 

"For some of us, going to prison seems like the end, but for me. It was the end of one life and the beginning of another life." 

Geick took advantage of everything that prison could offer her, from classes and seminars to the chapel library.

"I used prison as a stepping stone to get me to the next place. By the time my three years were up, I came out a changed woman. I did not think the same, my heart was not the same. I was a changed woman."

After leaving prison, Geick was enrolled in a rehabilitation house called Church Army Branson in Branson, Missouri. There, she went through the twelve step program for the first time. After she had completed the program, Church Army Branson asked her to stay on for two additional years to help rehabilitate other women. 

It was Geick's first experience of helping women through the rehabilitation program, but it would not be her last. 

After her third year in Branson, Geick moved back to Jefferson City, to live with her mother. She spotted a property she dreamed would one day be used to help women rehabilitate themselves from drug and alcohol dependency. Later, she would buy the property and Te Healing House was born.

It is now a home where nine women at a time live. The mission statement says the goal is to "rebuild shattered lives through a program of action by teaching spiritual principles that are rooted and grounded in the word of God."

Geick lives in the house and runs the program. During the day, the women all work. In the evening, they have various chores and responsibilities. At night, Geick leads them through a class. Geick said there is not one moment of the day that one of her women are not accounted for. 

Geick said that a program like the Healing House focuses on inward change, not external punishment. She said that is the best way to change a life.

"Everyone is looking for these outward things to fix the problems of abuse, or to fix the problems of substance use disorder, but I know this beyond a shadow of a doubt, that real lasting change starts within the person."

Geick said she is living proof.

"I never knew what true joy was, I never knew what peace was, I never knew what productive was, I never knew any of that stuff because I had never experienced it. For some of these people who experience heart change, they're going to get a life not back, but they're going to discover a life they've never known. A life where for the very first time they are living, not just existing." 

More News

Grid
List
COLUMBIA - Some say, the summer body is made in the winter, and Clovers Natural Market is hoping a clean... More >>
48 minutes ago Sunday, January 21 2018 Jan 21, 2018 Sunday, January 21, 2018 7:32:00 PM CST January 21, 2018 in News
BOONE COUNTY - A fire broke out Sunday afternoon on 3300 KMJ Road in northern Boone County of garage with... More >>
2 hours ago Sunday, January 21 2018 Jan 21, 2018 Sunday, January 21, 2018 6:05:00 PM CST January 21, 2018 in News
COLUMBIA - Winter weather didn't stop a group of yoga lovers from giving back to Mother Nature on Sunday in... More >>
2 hours ago Sunday, January 21 2018 Jan 21, 2018 Sunday, January 21, 2018 5:34:00 PM CST January 21, 2018 in News
COLUMBIA - The Worley Street Roundtable met to discuss concerns and new initiatives aimed at helping struggling Columbia Public Schools'... More >>
2 hours ago Sunday, January 21 2018 Jan 21, 2018 Sunday, January 21, 2018 5:25:00 PM CST January 21, 2018 in News
JEFFERSON CITY, Mo. (AP) — More than 200 people gathered at Missouri's Capitol this weekend to celebrate the first year... More >>
5 hours ago Sunday, January 21 2018 Jan 21, 2018 Sunday, January 21, 2018 3:19:27 PM CST January 21, 2018 in News
COLUMBIA- A Columbia resident's Facebook status went viral after he posted a video of an Eagle Stop gas pump charging... More >>
7 hours ago Sunday, January 21 2018 Jan 21, 2018 Sunday, January 21, 2018 12:53:00 PM CST January 21, 2018 in News
ST. LOUIS (AP) — The University of Missouri is using its Extension program to bring the faculty, research and students... More >>
8 hours ago Sunday, January 21 2018 Jan 21, 2018 Sunday, January 21, 2018 12:01:00 PM CST January 21, 2018 in News
COLUMBIA - The man wanted for his alleged involvement in the deadly New Year's Day Waffle House shooting has been... More >>
10 hours ago Sunday, January 21 2018 Jan 21, 2018 Sunday, January 21, 2018 9:54:00 AM CST January 21, 2018 in News
BOONVILLE - The gym filled with over 100 people roared with applause and laughter. In the gym, two-year-old Finn Shikles... More >>
21 hours ago Saturday, January 20 2018 Jan 20, 2018 Saturday, January 20, 2018 10:41:00 PM CST January 20, 2018 in News
ST. LOUIS (AP) — U.S. Sen. Claire McCaskill of Missouri was among a handful of Democrats in the Senate... More >>
1 day ago Saturday, January 20 2018 Jan 20, 2018 Saturday, January 20, 2018 6:19:00 PM CST January 20, 2018 in News
COLUMBIA - Hundreds of Missourians gathered at the Boone County Courthouse Plaza Saturday to march 10 blocks with the intention... More >>
1 day ago Saturday, January 20 2018 Jan 20, 2018 Saturday, January 20, 2018 5:20:00 PM CST January 20, 2018 in News
JEFFERSON CITY - One year ago, President Donald Trump was sworn into office, and on Saturday, supporters held a rally... More >>
1 day ago Saturday, January 20 2018 Jan 20, 2018 Saturday, January 20, 2018 5:00:00 PM CST January 20, 2018 in News
ST. LOUIS - A CNN report that the FBI has opened an inquiry into Gov. Eric Greitens "would not be... More >>
1 day ago Saturday, January 20 2018 Jan 20, 2018 Saturday, January 20, 2018 4:05:00 PM CST January 20, 2018 in News
JEFFERSON CITY – A Jefferson City woman is encouraging people to lock their car doors after she caught a thief... More >>
1 day ago Saturday, January 20 2018 Jan 20, 2018 Saturday, January 20, 2018 3:42:00 PM CST January 20, 2018 in News
COLUMBIA - Members of the community met, adopted and played with cats and kittens Saturday at a Columbia pet store.... More >>
1 day ago Saturday, January 20 2018 Jan 20, 2018 Saturday, January 20, 2018 2:52:00 PM CST January 20, 2018 in News
JEFFERSON CITY (AP) — Missouri Gov. Eric Greitens said there was no blackmail or threatened violence in an extramarital... More >>
1 day ago Saturday, January 20 2018 Jan 20, 2018 Saturday, January 20, 2018 1:09:00 PM CST January 20, 2018 in News
KANSAS CITY, Mo. (AP) — Kansas City police have made an arrest in a double shooting that left a 46-year-old... More >>
1 day ago Saturday, January 20 2018 Jan 20, 2018 Saturday, January 20, 2018 12:49:41 PM CST January 20, 2018 in News
SEDALIA - The Pettis County prosecutor has issued a warrant for the arrest of a man in connection to the... More >>
1 day ago Saturday, January 20 2018 Jan 20, 2018 Saturday, January 20, 2018 12:33:00 PM CST January 20, 2018 in News
Columbia, MO
Broken Clouds 62°
9pm 56°
10pm 56°
11pm 56°
12am 56°

Select a station to view its upcoming schedule:

Coming Up Next

8:00p
Ellen's Game of Games
9:00p
Ellen's Game of Games
10:00p
KOMU 8 News @ 10
7:00p
Look Who's Talking
9:00p
KOMU 8 News @ Nine on The CW
9:30p
Family Guy

Tonight's Schedule

7:00p
Little Big Shots
8:00p
Ellen's Game of Games
9:00p
Ellen's Game of Games
7:00p
Look Who's Talking
9:00p
KOMU 8 News @ Nine on The CW
9:30p
Family Guy